Sunday, December 24, 2006

New photos! hehe







Oki doki then. Went to Nan and Da's today, these are the pics lol.
I am quite happy with the way they turned out =D

Friday, December 22, 2006

christmas.

So Christmas is in three days. I am actually looking forward to christmas this year.
Christmas is funny, it brings out the crazy in people.
Christmas these days is materialistic, and to many it symbolises the end of the year and what you have and havent accomplished. Then these thoughts and feelings last until new years where we realise that we can't change anything, so we make resolutions and have high hopes.

What happened to the days where we decorated our hand picked christmas trees with pop corn and string?
What happened to the days where christmas wasn't such a rush, with people freaking out about shopping and presents?
What happened to the days where Christmas was just about family? Christ? Christmas cheer?

Okay Okay.
So maybe I do like the presents and the food.
But seriously sometimes Christmas brings out the bad in people.
I went to the city one year and saw a woman knock over a old lady just to get the last toy for her son.
Lets think about that one shall we?
so yeah your three year old son (who can't even grasp the concept of christmas) has one more gift to acompany the billions of others under your tree.
But an old lady can't stand up and socialise with her family at christmas lunch...because of you.
please tell me if it is worth it?
eh?

For me, presents aside. Christmas is very emotional.
My mum can't join us for christmas with the family.
And here comes what I was talking about earlier.
I look back and see what our family has gone through this year and it makes me sad in some ways but oh so very happy in others. I guess to just focus on the possitive - My mum and I have become so close, and to be honest she is like my mum when she needs to be, but she can be like my best friend at other times. I would have never thought we could be so close. It means the world to me that we can get along like we do, and with such love. She may not have been able to do a lot of the things most mums do, but she has done so much more. She is amazing. She inspires me. She has given me the emotional support I needed. And to be honest I wouldn't give up our relationship for the world. My dad, he is just a remarkable human being, he has also given me the emotional support I needed this year. He holds us together as best he can. He is also an inspiration to me. My daddy and I have the best father daughter relationship I have ever seen. He has given up his time to to take me places. I cant even explain what me and my dad have, he has always just been my daddy, and I will always be his little girl. My parents are everything to me. And I thank them for everything. I guess this year I have been able to see my parents as not only 'mother and father' but human beings aswel. They have pain, happiness, love...every emotion I have. And I have been able to see that and accept it in the best way possible.
We may not have a "normal"(...whatever the hell normal is) life. But we have each other. Things are tough...very tough at times. But we help where we can. We may not have as much money as some, we may not have a perfect house, we have many problems with sickness inside the walls of this home. But The one thing I can feel as soon as I enter the door, is love.
And that is one thing money can't buy.

xoxo


Tuesday, December 19, 2006

photoshop fun.



Okay so, last few days I have been playing around with photoshop, its really quite fun.
Manipulating photos is fun <3
Mum got the idea of 'pop art' in my head, so I thought I might try it out.


colour

Just a touch of colour





Imagine a life without colour.
Imagine if your heart was black and cold.
Imagine a world in black and white.

When I say colour I don't really mean colour as we know it.
I mean emotions.
Change.
Difference.
Indeviduality.
People.
Expression.
Life.
Passion.
...and the list goes on.

We all need colour in our lives...



Okay so I don't really have a lot to say at the moment. Well I do, I just don't know how to go about writing it at this point in time. So we will leave this one here then.
xoxo

...




Thursday, December 14, 2006

<3


Life is funny, its like a ball of play dough. You can make it into what ever you want it to be, sometimes it just takes a bit of practice first. And if you want to make a masterpiece, all you need is some people to share their play dough with you.

Life takes so many twists and turns, sometimes you just can't keep up. I have come to the decision that as much as you do have control of your own life, sometimes the people in it decide to take you on a rollercoaster. And you just have to sit and enjoy the ride. Sometimes the ride is amazing, sometimes it's not. You just have to learn to accept that, and love the whole trip. You have to like the unexpected, but be ready for it to pop up at any time. You have to welcome change, and stare a challenge in the eyes and hope to overcome it. You have to wake up with a smile, and go to bed with no regrets. You have to make sure the ones you love know that they mean everything to you. You have to take care of yourself, but make sure that it doesn't effect the ones around you in a neggative way. Most of all, you have to learn to embrace life and all its flaws.

In the past year I have grown. I used to let all of lifes unfortunate events hit me straight on, and let the wound bleed. I covered the ground I stood on in tears. I let the darkness devour me. But I now know that there is no time to let that happen. As long as the days seem, and the years drag on, life is short. If you only opened your eyes and looked around you can see that. The world is a beautiful place, and if you have special people in your life it makes it a whole lot better. I thank everyone who has helped me see that. Don't waste the time you have dwelling on the neggative, your time could be up tomorrow. Don't bother with the 'what if's?' because in the end, if its a wrong choice its a lesson, and if it was a good choice you have gained something.

Life is beautiful. Your family is beautiful. Your friends are beautiful. Your lover is beautiful. Take advantage of all the beauty around you.

xoxo

Monday, December 11, 2006

photos. Again.

Me about...5 or so months ago. I like the hair.

Okay, so this is Vanessa my very close friend. I decided to put this pic up because its very very rare to have a photo of her, and shes beautiful.

Okay so, this pic is more for me to remember the colour of the eyeshadow I used. I quite like it.



Me dressed up like a dick. LOL. nah don't mind the scarf eh. I like the effect of the sunnies and my eyes though.

Okay so right about now I seem very vain.
I'm not.
I just like to remember things.

<3
xoxo



Saturday, December 09, 2006

Jade?

Who am I?


I know if you read my blog you can gain quite a bit of knowledge about myself.
But.
I wanted to add some of the smaller things about me.
Some of the things that get overlooked, but mean something to me.
So here it goes.


I like small flowers, in bright colours.
I like sushi, and other japanese food.
I love asian food in general.
I like music ranging from 'a perfect circle' and "Murderdolls" to 'pink'.
I dislike fish.
I'm allergic to lavender.
I do sing in the shower.
I hate repetitive noises (tap tap tap).
I have a phobia of bellybuttons.
I like the look of butterflies, but im scared of them in real life.
I like spiders and snakes.
My eyes kind of change colour.
I have only stopped biting my nails a few weeks ago.
I will not write in blue pen.
I eat a cheeseburger in a circle (around the edges).
I love brands like chanel, lancome and christian dior.
But I use maybelline and rimmel.
I love purfume.
I want to be a veterinary nurse.
I volunteer at the RSPCA.
I have never had a paying job.
I will not wear gold.
I like to draw and paint.
I don't really like chocolate.
I love the book 'God is a bullet' and 'Go ask Alice'
I love movies like 'Party monster', 'Trainspotting', 'Candy' and 'One perfect day'.
I also love Tim Burton movies.
I have a birth mark on my neck (which I hate).
In the past year I have learnt to love life.
I am really close to and love my family.
I love my boyfriends family (surprise)...and him of course.
I like winter.
I love rain.
I am a 'Buffy' addict.
I always cry in sad movies.
I would choose a home cooked meal over take away.
I like indian food.
I have a labret.
I have six ear piercings.
I re pierce four of them every month or so due to infection.
I have asian shaped eyes.
Which I now like - except I don't have visable eyelids / dont ask.
I would choose water or fruit juice over soft drinks.
I like vodka.
I get along with older people better, opposed to people my age.
I am hopeless at maths.
I excel in english, apart from the fact that I am hopeless at spelling.
I write for fun.
I have lost a lot of wieght in the past year.
I have left school forever.
I am named Jade due to having some chinese blood in me.
I find animal babies more adorable than human babies.
My star sign in Libra.


Okay so here is a few of the many smaller details of my personality and of just me in general.
But I guess in the end, it adds up to who I am as a whole.
I'm a quirky little cookie eh?
No, I'm just me.
And I know you love it.
yes.
xoxo






Thursday, December 07, 2006

FAIRYYYYYYY jade. maybe.





Mufti day costume.
didn't end up going.
But it was fun dressing up.
yes <3

?

She runs, she laughs, she cries. The darkness almost devours her if she gets too close. The moonlight slightly touches her bare skin, and glides across her face to form a sparkle in the eyes.
The delicate smile she wears is enough to make you die. The beautiful satin dress wrapped around her tends to hold her very tight. She is lost. but not alone. The air sings a lovely insane song for only her to consume. The trees try to grasp at the crimson bow entangled in her flowing hair, wanting it to cradle her face. Her eyes, green like the toxic ground she walks upon.

I have no idea what this is.
It may have potential
who knows?

xoxo



love, hate and little touch of beauty

What is love?
Love makes you smile
Love makes you cry
Love makes you believe
Love makes you scream
Love makes you do funny things
Love makes you hate
Love opens new doors
Love is life
Love is the best feeling in the world
Love makes you wonder
Love is everything
Love is special
Love is something everyone tries to find
Love is passion
Love is natural
Love has no boundaries
Love has no end
Love lingers in the air
Love is happiness
Love has limits
Love is a kiss
...a hug
...a good deed
Love can appear in the most unlikely places
Love is shared between people

Love cannot quite be explained.


What is hate?
Hate is a four letter word
Hate is over used
Hate can be avoided
Hate along with greed has brough this world to its end
Hate is dirty
Hate appears in too many forms
Hate makes you hurt yourself and others
Hate makes you lie
Hate makes you kill
...among other things
Hate doesn't deserve a place in this world
Hate is opposite to love
Hate lies in all of us
Hate grows
hate lingers in the air
Hate makes you wonder

Why hate when you can love?



What is beauty?
Beauty is everywhere
beauty is beautiful
Beauty is an appearance
Beauty is a persons heart
Beauty is the land, ocean...
beauty lingers
Beauty is whatever you want it to be
beauty is pain
Beauty is joy
beauty is a smile
Beauty keeps holds the world together
beauty is in the soul
Beauty is what you see when you look into someone you love's eyes
Beauty is the scent of a rose
...the breeze on your face
Beauty is every living thing

Beauty is everywhere, if we only took the time to look around.





WHAT!?!?!?!?!

DID YOU SAY PIE?

<3 Aaron <3

I love him more than anything, he is my everything.
He is amazing, in every way.
He makes me happy, like no other ever could.
I don't know how he does it.
I miss his touch, his scent, his kiss...
I miss him.
I don't know why he picked me, but i am happy he did.
I can not even begin to explain how he makes me feel.
He picked me up from the darkest stage of my life, and taught me how to fly again.
I do believe in soulmates - and he is mine.
He is perfect.
He shines above the rest.
I let him hold my fragile heart, and know he wont bruise it.
And I swear I will never harm his.
My heart skips for him.
My soul sings for him.
He is my happiness.
I will love him - forever.
promise.
I know things can be tough, but I always love him.
And I hope he will always love me.
He has made me complete.
And I owe him everything for that.
I will do anything for him.





Baby, I will love you for, forever and a day.
promise.
-kisses you gently-
xoxo

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

I believe in fairytales


I guess in my eyes this quote explains me perfectly.
I have always been a dreamer.
I will always look for those fairies, if only in my head.
I think as long as it makes you happy you can believe what you want.
butterflies, fairies, puppies... they all make me happy.
The small things in life make me happy to be alive.
I often wonder if fairytales are completely fictional.
A fairytale always has a happy ending.
I want to have a happy ending.
I know I will have a happy ending.
I wish I could call a small mushroom my home.
How amazing would that be!
I want to be a princess, if only in one persons eyes.
I wish I had wings, or magical powers.
I wish I was the hero at the end of the story.
I want to forever dream.
I don't care if it is childish.
It makes me smile.
you are only limited to your imagination.
you can fly forever.
you can dream forever.
you can look for those fairys in your garden forever.
there is no limit.
xoxo


Thursday, November 23, 2006

I wish...

I could fly
I could be an animal
I could see Aaron right now
I could be on a theme park ride
I could see things differently
I had green eyes
I could go away for a while
I had a duckling
It was winter
It was snowing
I could see a snowflake
I could figure out...everything
everything was easy
I could take certain peoples pain away
I could understand
.

Don't ask. Thats what was going through my head at the current moment.
I get to see my baby tomorrow.
It's going to be hard to sleep tonight.
Today, I really didn't do much, had a lot of time to think - not always a good thing.
I painted my nails pink today.
finger nails - dark berry pink
toe nails - neon pink.
that was the highlight of my day, sorry to say.
My nana is fixing this pretty pink top my aunty gave me, its come apart at one of the seams
its so beautiful and delicate. sequins and all.
gorgeous.
<3

I will leave it here
goodnight
sweetdreams
kiss//hug//kiss//hug

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

photos!! (me mostly)

Me as a fairyyyyy

Me with birthday flowers lol <3>
This would also be meee


My husband/ baby cakes/ love of my life


Me =)


Tuesday, November 21, 2006

...tuesday.

What do I have to say?
I miss him.
I want to get away for a while. Vacation seems needed.
by myself, or with someone.
I want ingredients to make a big omlette.
I want to go out with steph since she called today and my dad had just left for work.
I want to cuddle up with Aaron and watch a movie - with popcorn

nevermind.

I called the RSPCA again today...for the millionth time to book an induction date. And once again im told to call back the next day. Oh well its only tuesday and the induction in on sunday, which means I can start on monday. Finally. Puppies, kittens, hopefully a duckling. I like ducks. yes.

I am only going to get to see Aaron one day the weekend. oh well.

I am watching 'ready steady cook' at the moment. When i'm bored or lost I tend to crave cooking food. but i don't really want to eat it that much. depending. Cooking shows keep you entertained for a good few hours. fun fun.
I went to nans last night and we cooked dinner together, I think she really enjoys my company.
we made meatballs with Cummin, paprika, bbq sauce, worcheshire sauce, garlic, salt and pepper and a little bit of soy sauce.
then we made mashed potato with milk and butter and a pinch of salt.
We boiled carrots and then added butter and honey!
And then I made my special cheese bread - like the one in 'sizzler' mmm.


I have been kind of upset lately, but I don't want to go into that at the moment.
Take everyday as it comes.
and do what you can with it.
tired.

Aaron if you are reading this
I love you.
I miss you.
xoxox.

Anyways - I am off
take care.
the end.
xoxo






Wednesday, October 11, 2006

today...

Today I wake up and WOW! its raining. What a surprise.
I have to go and put like five layers of clothing on just to make it outside.
it just doesnt make sense, although I loved it.
So Aaron and I go to Whitfords and shop.
We go and get KFC, buy Aaron a new shirt, which I must say looks rather sexy on him, he bought me a red nighty...or however you spell it and he bought me a doughnut. YUM! it was pink.
So now were just laying and watching a few new episodes of shows such as Weeds and NCIS, ish fun diddly um numb.
i dont know.
nevermind.
anyways short post today.
Mummy I love you if you are reading this.
I read the rest of your blog today
=')
bye bye
xoxox

Saturday, October 07, 2006

It's a saturday once again

Well, once again it is a saturday.
But I'm going to do something I havent bothered doing in a very long while.
I'm going to the city with Steph.
Since being with Aaron I kind of let alot of my friends go.
That and the fact that I go to school, and have to travel through the city every single day.
The city gets tiresome.
And the fact that I want to be with Aaron most of the time.
But I think I might go on a sort of spending spree.
Get some things I want, it will be fun.

That reminds me.
This year for my birthday I am going to use the money I recieve - for me.
I usually go and spend it on food, alcohol for parties and cigarettes.
how sad.
So this year im making a list of a few things I really really want for myself.
so I am going to make the list right here right now.
I may not get all of these things, they are just suggestions for myself.

  • Perfume from the body shop.
  • passionfruit lipgloss from the body shop.
  • earings.
  • jeans.
  • a scented moisturiser
  • mascara
  • red underwear
  • eyeliner
  • red shoes
  • hair dye
  • hair gel/wax/putty
  • red skirt
  • soap/shower gel from the body shop
Thats all I can think of at the moment.
but it is a rough outline.

well im off to watch something with Aaron dear.
xoxo

Friday, October 06, 2006

About me.

Firstly. I know I was bitching about myspace. but my friends just got hacked. sorry hun. xoxo

so yes about me.
I am loving
I am in love
I believe in fate
I believe in Karma
I believe everything happens for a reason
I hold my family, my boyfriend and my friends very close to my heart
I can be your typical girl, if i want to be.
I think way too much
I am very quirky
I am smart, I guess.
I believe regrets eat you alive, so I try not to have any
I think life should be fun
but you are the only one who can make it that way
...believe me, I know
Life is full of possibilities, and that somewhat scares me.

anyways
Likes

  • Aaron
  • the colours purple, green, red, blue and black
  • vodka
  • juice
  • Animals
  • Nightmares
  • dreams
  • friends
  • handcuffs
  • rain
  • the stars in the night sky
  • waves crashing against the shore at night
  • gummy bears
  • Crisps in bread.
  • making cakes with aaron
  • sleeping in aarons bed, so cuddly.
  • just being with aaron
  • shopping
  • shoes
  • movies
  • parks.
  • fruit
  • showers
  • photography
  • art
  • drawing
  • flowers
  • friends
  • jewelery
  • TEDDY BEARS
  • aarons blankie
  • Perfume
That will do.
I cant be bothered doing my dislikes
Theres no point
you do not need to know what I dont like.
The end

must go snuggle
xoxo



I just don't get it.

Okay so. Myspace WHAT THE FUCK.
I just dont get it.
It makes no sense to me. seriously.
the people 90% of the time ARE NOT YOUR ACTUAL FRIENDS.
they lie.
so let the bitching begin.

1. so when a little myspace whore has a problem.
what do they do?
THEY MAKE A POST.
but.
they will not actually name the person it is directed at.
SO.
now theres 300+ bitches running around going HOLY SHIT so and so is pissed off at me.
OH MY GOD.
YOU DONT EVEN KNOW THEM WHY WOULD THEY BE PISSED OFF AT YOU.

2. next.
People make a post going 'so and so is fucking ugly'
ONCE AGAIN THERE IS 500+ BITCHES SCRAMBLING AROUND PUTTING ON MAKEUP
because they are so ugly
no.

3.
on that subject. why say you are ugly if you have made an account and are asking for pic comments.
come on.
you know you are beautiful.
or maybe your head is just so far up your ass.
you cant see that you are.

ramble ramble ramble.
i dont know
people shit me.
the end.
xoxox




Friday, September 08, 2006

How cute...

Aaron = Cute.
He buys me teddy's when I'm sick.
He insists I drink coffee to feel better.
Tells me to go inside right after I have had my cigarette because my cold will get worse.
Spends $4 to win me lollies on a skill tester // even though he only gets like 6 lollies.
Takes me shopping so I can forget about my cold.
Holds me tight when the wind hits my face.
Takes me to a movie and cuddles up to me.
...And makes me wait outside the jewelery store whilst he pays off our one year anniversary gift

Yes this is reffering to yesterday.
I took the day off school because I have the flu, and I stayed at his house
He took care of me, tucked me into bed
Kissed me
and then said
...wake me if you need anything...even just a cuddle
get better baby
I love you
<3
And then the next day he took me out to the shops and treated me to a movie, popcorn, a teddy and a beautiful coffee.
Yes I love this boy


I sat down and wrote him a letter on my computer today...maybe it will deserve a place in this blog at some point. I hope he likes it...I mean i spent like an hour writing it, and its only a page long.
how sad. I wanted it to be perfect.

Well I best be off...It is 2:16am and I am tired as a fish with no wings.
nevermind.
goodnight
xoxo


Welcome To My World.

Hello, my name is Jade,
I am sixteen years old
I have just left highschool
I am in [love]
I live in Australia

So thats a little introduction to
me.
Nothing special...yet.
This blog is now a second ho
me for my thoughts
my poetry
my daily life
the things I feel are important
The words that run around my brain all day long
and little // or big things about myself
just things I feel i need to share.

So
metimes I just don't know what to do with all the thoughts that crowd my mind
we'll now I do.
They will stay in here
For
me to share
...for
me to remember.
So starting now
This is
me.
-welco
me to my world-