Happiness in a week.

Just thought I would share a little post about what has happened during Christmas until now.

Christmas was amazing this year. I got such a sense of wonder giving my gifts to my family, everyone seemed very surprised and extremely thankful. Christmas eve I spent with Mama, Daddy and Nan. It was so much fun and I felt those butterflies you do when you are young. I made both my parents and my nan a handmade gift each which once again reduced them to tears, oh how I love my power over people! No on a serious note, it was beautiful, having the ability to draw such strong emotions from people because of something you made is a fantastic feeling.

Christmas day was great, Aaron and I got to Nans early so I could help her with food and such. Aaron becomes so much more relaxed each time he is around my family, one day they will be able to see the boy I see everyday. He was so affectionate though which makes me feel very special. It was great spending time with Daddy as well, we don't get to hang out in that kind of situation much, but it always amazes me just how proud I am of him, how proud I am to be his daughter, especially around my family. I got to spend the day with my two favorite boys. Everyone congratulated Aaron and myself and the atmosphere was really calm (which is an achievement when it's a good 40 degrees outside).
All in all, I have my christmas spirit back.

Aaron has had a week and a bit off so it's been fantastic having him home and spending some time together by ourselves. On Sunday we had all of our friends over, including Steph and Vanessa, it was so much fun having some female company and I love spending time with them both. Steph stayed over for the night and we had a couple of drinks, played games, listened to music and talked all night.

Yesterday I had a very bad headache and my coping method was a little bit of retail therapy on strawberrynet. I bought two Clairns lip tints and a Tigi hair treatment. I can't wait for it to arrive.

So there is a little recount of my past week.

Christmas 2009

Christmas time is near

Christmas is just a week and a half away. I am looking forward to Christmas this year. For years when I was younger I hated this time of year, but as I became older, I slowly got my spirit back. This year I was able to buy presents, even though they are small, for my family.

I wrapped my presents in baby blue paper and yellow or pink ribbon. The day I bought the wrapping I was in a very happy mood and decided against the traditional colours. They look amazing anyways. Everything I do represents a little bit of me - unpredictable.

So Christmas Eve I will be spending with Mama, Daddy and Nan - like every year, it's a bit of a tradition in our family to spend almost every occasion at midnight. I will treasure these memories forever. We usually get cheeses, dips, olives, crackers and everything along these lines to eat for dinner. I look forward to this pretty much every year.

Christmas Day we have a family gathering at Nans, it will be good to catch up with everyone and we always have an extravagant array of food.

Finally on Boxing Day we will be driving up to Ledge Point to spend the day (or maybe a couple of days) with Bruce and Cheryle. It's nice to relax up there and we also have a lot of yummy food!

Lovely.

I wish all of my family and friends a wonderful Christmas and a very happy New Year.

Bobbi Brown

So it has taken me a good eight months to finally buy something online.

I often visit websites that sell products I like - Strawberrynet is my favorite.
I spend hours on these sites, looking at make-up, perfume, hair products and jewelery. I even add things to my cart, but by the time I am finished I usually decide that I cannot spend the money and close the window.

So on Wednesday night Aaron watches me looking at perfumes, adding them to my cart and then deleting them (like usual). But I added a gorgeous Bobby Brown eyeshadow kit worth $80 but discounted to $39. I just couldn't delete it. Aaron is there telling me to go for it and live a little.

After a good half an hour of thought - I purchased it.
I also get a Revlon lipstick and a Pierre Cardin necklace for free! The shipping is also free - except with perfumes.

I am so excited.

I also love Bobby Brown cosmetics.

Engaged

Aaron and I got engaged on the 30th October 2009.

It happened during our trip to Melbourne. We had decided to go to a hotel and see all the sights Melbourne city has to offer during the Friday and Saturday of our holiday.

We stayed in the Crown Towers Hotel, which was absolutely magical. Walking into the lobby was mesmerising... Chandeliers of all shapes and sizes hanging from every inch of the ceiling, mood lighting and dramatic music. As soon as I stepped in, although I was only wearing a denim skirt and a singlet, I felt like a princess... in a beautiful satin dress and heels.
My heart was happy.

We got our key cards to our Deluxe King suite, which was room 18:18.
The room was amazing, the most beautiful hotel room I have ever been in, we had a view of the bay and the city.

Later that night, after a couple of adventures around Melbourne, Aaron called me over to the window. We were staring out at our breath taking view, cuddling, kissing and saying how much we love each other... Aaron got down on one knee and said "Will you marry me?"

Of course I said yes.

About me 2009

• Aaron and I celebrated our 4 year anniversary on the 18th September.
• Aaron and I are still completely and utterly in love and know we will be together forever.
• My middle name is Maddison and it is now one of my favorite names.
• I have a certificate III and IV in children's services.
• This year I completed my first year of Bachelor of Education (K-7).
• Next year I am going to switch to Psychology - I am so excited.
• I do not have a favorite colour, I just can't choose.
• However I dislike the colour orange.
  
• My star sign is Libra and I often turn to my horoscope if I am feeling a bit lost.
• I live with Aaron and we will probably move in with some friends next year.
• I am going to be a Godmother at the start of next year.
• I have a tattoo on my wrist. It is an "Lbj"written in script - symbolising Lynn, Brian and Jade.
• My parents are as close as I can get to best friends. Two people I trust more than anyone. Two people I love with everything I have to give. Two people I feel comfortable with no matter what.
  
• I have started reading again, when I thought all was lost after God is a bullet, along came The twilight saga. Now I can't wait to finish so I can read Dan Brown's novels.
• I love all of Edgar Allen Poe's work.
• I just turned 19 and have a strange fear of turning 20.
• Aaron and I have already picked out baby names, for if and when we have children.
• Acrylic nails make me feel beautiful.
• I have 8 piercings.
• I only wear silver jewelery.
• I have an I.D bracelet that Aaron gave me that I NEVER take off.
• I wear a ring, necklace and earrings Aaron has given me on different occasions.
• I have the biggest sweet tooth.
  
• However I usually eat really healthy.
• I love eating at restaurants - but usually get order envy.
• I am really indecisive.
• I love to cook. My friends and family rave about my food.
• I wear dresses almost every day.
• I only wear ballet flats (shoes)
  
• I love high heels but they hurt my back.
• My favorite perfumes are : Armani Code, Davidoff cool water, Chanel allure, Britney spears fantasy, Ralph Lauren romance, Miss Dior Cherie... just to name a few.
• I love scents and smelling things. However I am allergic to lavender.
• I love picnics.
• I often read at the park.
• My favorite high fashion brands are: Chanel, Dior, Prada and louis Vuitton.
• I am very shy.
• I am extremely opinionated, but keep my opinions to myself.
• I have been dying my hair black for about 6 years.
• I have size 8 feet.
• I am also I size 8 dress size.
• I love chocolate and I am one of those girls who buy boxed chocolate when I am upset.
• I love to write and have very good handwriting.
• I don't like lamb, pork or seafood.
• I love all fruits and vegetables (except banana).
• I often write people notes and letters to show my love and appreciation.
• I am addicted to Chai Latte.
• I don't deal well with failure.
• I love knowing and learning anything about drugs/alcohol/addiction/mental illness.
• I am scared of the dark - I will not open my eyes if there is no lights on.
• I drink mainly water.
• I believe that with every negative comes a positive.
• I still have no idea what happens after death (still searching).
• I want a small wedding - with a huge wedding cake!
• I am terrified of death as well as getting old.
• I cherish all the people close to me.
• I can be a perfectionist.
• I won't do something if I am not interested or can't be motivated.
• I no longer drink coffee.
• I carry everything but the kitchen sink in my handbag,
• I often talk to myself when no one is around.
• I also sing when no one is around.
• I love music.
• If I say "I love you" I mean it with all of my heart.
• I am hoping to get my second tattoo next year.
• I have learnt to deal with my emotions over the years.
• The best feelings are love and happiness.
• I am thinking 24/7 - I often go off into my little world, until someone brings me back.
• I don't mind spending time alone.
• I am either too hot or too cold at any given time.
• I love animals.
• Over the years I have wanted to be a tattoo artist, vet nurse, Teacher, Psychologist and Chef.
• I can be extremely uncoordinated.
  
• I dislike sports because of this.
• I do like exercise though - when I can be bothered.
• Over the past couple of years I have learnt a lot about who I am and what I want in life.
• I do want to be a mother one day.
  
• I try to appear strong and perfect all the time - in reality I am just as lost as anyone else.
• I don't make friends easy ( or let anyone get close).
• Just because I don't talk much, doesn't mean I don't like you.
• Believe me, you would know if I didn't like you.
• I hate discrimination of any kind. Why put someone down because of something they cannot change?
• Why put someone down at all? Does it make you sleep better at night?
• Sometimes you just have to hold your head high, and go for it.
• I believe you should follow your dreams and never let anyone tell you that you can't do something.
• My favorite words are: Love, adore, cherish, inspire, passion, believe and dream.
• I hate gardening. I intend on having a plastic garden.
• I don't like baths. Something just doesn't feel right.
• I shower and wash my hair at least once a day.
• I am an only child and have never disliked it.
• I have a beauty routine.
• I very rarely drink alcohol.
• I have so many stories to tell. Many of which you will never understand.
• I really dislike photos of myself - unless I am the photographer.
• I don't like socks.
• I can't wait to get at pet.
• I hate belly buttons.
• I don't understand bad manners.
• I like spiders.
• I also like snakes.
• I will usually let a bug outside instead of kill it (depending).
• I can't even look at a preying mantis, they give me chills.
• I could spend forever at the zoo, I just wish I could cuddle the animals - so what if the tiger thinks I am lunch?
• My favorite fruits are: Mango, Apples, Cherries, Lychee's and watermelon.
• I prefer to message people as opposed to calling them.
• I love learning new things.
• I am a list maker. I make lists for everything.
• I don't tan. I love my pale skin.
• I have a strawberry birthmark on my neck - often mistaken for a hickey - this does not impress me the slightest.
• Even though I would get so angry at Nan when she told me how to do things - I do them that exact way now.
• My Mum and Dad have been my biggest inspiration throughout life.
• I refuse to ever have a credit card.
• If I can't trust you - I will never be close to you.
• I forgive, but trust me - I never ever forget.
• I try to take every day as it comes.
• I hate being overwhelmed.
• I am rarely lost for words.
• I love make-up and dressing up - yes I am a typical girl.
  
• I am easily hurt - but I rarely show it.
• If I take a little bit to respond to a question - give me a sec, I am thinking!
• I am very patient.
• I am empathetic.
• I have always had an interest in vampires.
• I also like anything dark, morbid and sadistic - not really sure why (poetry/books/movies).
• I don't understand 'stupid/mindless' humour.
• I like to read subtitles.
• I desperately need glasses.
• Once upon I time I loved to draw and paint. Now it frustrates me.
• I love fairies and imps.
• I always buy blank cards and write my own verses, it's more personal.
• I love flowers in bright colours, especially blue roses.
  
• I love cherry blossoms.
• I can find beauty in almost anything.
• People say they don't know much about me - it's because you never asked.
• The very first time I spoke to Aaron on msn I knew he was the person I would be with for the rest of my life.
• I also fell in love with him that very day - it's hard to believe, but it's true.
• We didn't start dating for another 2-3 years.
• I absolutely hated high school.
• I love Alice in Wonderland.
• I am often referred to as the 'mother figure'.
• I am easily amused and enjoy the simple things in life.
  
• I have ridden a camel.
• I enjoy fast rides.
• I would prefer to sky dive than to bungee jump.
• I only drink sugar free drinks.
• I hope to one day find the inspiration to write a book.
• I like things to be neat.
• Aaron and I can communicate in sounds (a bit hard to explain).
  
• I never intentionally hurt anyone.
• I never shout when I am angry. I often just keep quiet.
• I am very observant, more than people give me credit for.
• I have pretty in depth dreams every single night. I can remember them all when I first wake up - but the memory fades in about 15 minutes.
• I love anything almond, coconut or cherry flavoured.
  
• I am attracted to the colour red. I will often buy things in this colour, which end up being very impractical.
• I am also attracted to shiny things.
• I am quite modest.
• I like to think my style is somewhat sophisticated.
• I don't buy things just because they are in fashion.
• I don't like body hair - on females.
• My eyes are almond shaped.
  
• I love sorbet, I do prefer it over ice cream.
• If I go to sleep angry, 90% of the time I wake up happy and over it. If I wake up and I am still mad - then you worry.
  
• I was born one month premature - which means I was meant to be a Scorpio. I sometimes feel I have Scorpio qualities locked inside me screaming to get out. It's a bit strange.
  
• I like researching personality types.
• I have never broken a bone.
• I only wear natural colours in make up.
  
• I like to acquire as much knowledge I can.
• I tend to procrastinate a lot.
• I try to further myself as a daughter, a girlfriend, a friend and a person every single day.
  
• Even though none of my piercings hurt, I was still terrified each time I went.
• I would rather swim with a shark than to swim with a school of tiny fish.
• I don't like it when insects are missing limbs, because it leads to the question "where is it?" Which totally freaks me out.
• I cannot stand ferrero rocher chocolate - you are just paying for nicely wrapped Nutella and a hazelnut.
• I rarely use "texting shorthand"... would it kill you to write the entire word? Especially when people write 'like' as 'Lyk'.
  
• I dislike the taste and smell of butter.
• I think some questions are better left unanswered.
• I don't understand birds in cages... they have wings for a reason.
• I love honey.
• I have to admit, I do sometimes buy things for the packaging.
• I will be going on my first plane trip to Melbourne in less than a week.
• My favorite holiday in Christmas.
• I don't really get excited about my birthday. That doesn't mean you can't make me excited.
• I have a natural ability to write. In grade 10 I scored highest in my class for writing an in depth description about a book.... I never even read.
• When I was young I had a slight obsession with Egypt.
• I also loved dogs. I am pretty sure if I was given the choice, I would have became a dog.
• I have owned rats as pets.
• I do not understand artificial banana flavour - it is absolutely disgusting.
  
• I wake up most days with either neck pain or a headache/migraine.
  
• My eyes change colour. Usually they are a yellow/gold/green colour in the light.
• I am pretty good at giving directions.
• I would love to visit other countries but have never wanted to move to another country. I like Australia.
• I don't find anyone but Aaron attractive - physically or emotionally.
• I love logic puzzles.
• I just can't do jigsaw puzzles.
• I am very much Anti-guns.
• My name means precious green gemstone.

September.

On the 17th of August this year I got my first tattoo.
It is a 'Lbj' written in script on my wrist. The letters stand for Lynn, Brian and Jade.
I have always known I would one day want a tattoo with my parents names somewhere. But as each day passes, especially in the last few years, I have realised just how much they both mean to me. My tattoo is a reminder, that no matter what I will always have two people who love me more than anything, who will always be there for me and who will always believe in me... even when I can't believe in myself. It is also a symbol of my neverending love for them, my pride, my trust and my strength.


Aaron and I celebrated our four year anniversary on the 18th Sepetember. We are so happy and in love. We didn't do much but that is because we are going to Melbourne in October. I got him a stirling silver thick chain necklace and he got me white gold cubic zirconia earrings - they are beautiful, I wear them every single day... just like the necklace he got me a few years ago. I love him with everything I have.


Another exciting bit of news is that I am going to be a Godmother to a new baby boy/girl early next year. One of my best friends is having a baby.
:)


I got a letter from Uni a couple of months ago, congratulating me. I scored within the top 10% and made the Dean's Honour roll. I was shocked and experienced way too many emotions all at once. Unfortunately I don't think I will do so well this semester... as I have been quite unwell and was struggling with a couple of other problems, all I keep telling myself is "as long as you pass, you can do better next year".


I read the Twilight Saga this year. A total of 4 books - twilight, new moon, eclipse and breaking dawn. It is a great read and finally broke me out of my... obsession (GIAB). At the moment I am trying to give the Sookie Stackhouse novels a read (which the TV series Trueblood is based on) however it's just not working - unfortunately I feel the TV series is just too good. I think I will give Dan Brown a go next - Mum is always raving about his books.


Early next year Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland comes out, I can't wait... I love all of Tim Burton's work, which is pure genius when combined with Johnny Depp's acting. Knowing Burton's style, it is bound to be the Alice in Wonderland I have always dreamed of.




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Well this is my little update
xxx

This is how it is.

In life I have explored many paths, some I wish I had never stumbled across, many I will never remember, and even more I will never forget.

But somewhere along this journey I found myself, I found the man of my dreams and found the things in life that make my heart beat faster and my spirit dance.

I will have no regrets, mistakes have been made and now as time passes, I will never fear the journey that created the person I am today.

... and I will not fear the journey, no matter where it takes me, to the person I will one day become.

It's June already.

I started University this year and I have just finished my first semester. If you asked me to describe how I felt about Uni a few months ago my answer would have been this: "It feels as though I have jumped into the deep end of the water without a floatation device and I haven't quite discovered whether or not I can swim". However, I have now discovered I can indeed swim and I am loving it. I wouldn't say it is easy, but it is worth it. The best feeling is knowing that I am extending myself as a person, constantly learning and gaining new knowledge, provoking my natural interest and refining my abilities.

I have also moved in and am now living with Aaron, my gorgeous boyfriend of almost four years. It's amazing. I was terrified the first few weeks and was unsure if it would work out, but I am now settled in and am honestly happy. I still cannot believe how much I love that boy. He makes my soul dance, and my heart sing a beautiful melody... I look into his eyes and I see my future staring back at me.

Mama and Daddy have been amazing this year, they have offered me so much love and support through all of my endevours and have been an inspiration. I still feel that I can talk to them both more openly than anyone else and absolutely cherish the time I have with them. I was blessed to have a family with such strength, passion and courage and try every single day to carry not only those traits around with me, but to carry both of their spirits with me as well.


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So I was thinking the other day about my personality and the emotions and attributes I possess. I discovered I have four different personalities for four different groups of people. I thought this may be interesting to share.

The composed Jade (70%)
This is the most common personality, 65% of people get this Jade. This is where I am composed, appear strong and independent yet stand off-ish and shy. I am mysterious and very hard to get to, I would describe it as trying to talk to someone through a fly mesh door. I do not feel the need for company, meaning I don't seek it, however I enjoy it if company finds me.

The natural Jade (20%)
This is the me I show to people I trust and enjoy spending time with. These people get the playful, happy, honest, caring, trustworthy, witty and free spirited Jade. I love to joke and go a little nuts. Yet still remain elegant and intelligent.

The loving Jade (5%)
This is the side of me that is loyal and extremely loving and protective. These people also get the natural Jade... with sprinkles on top. These are the people I would die for and who mean the absolute world to me. However these people may also witness the sad, emotional, insecure and confused part of me on occasion.

The hateful Jade (5%)
These people get pretty much nothing from me. I have pushed them aside for a reason. These people usually will not recieve forgiveness.

So there we go. That is my in depth look at myself.

I will leave it here for now.

xxx

25 things.

So there is this thread going around facebook where you are required to post 25 things about yourself. It can be facts, memories, goals... or anything you like. I thought hard about this and wanted to see what I could come up with. Though I do not want everyone on Facebook to view this I believe it would be an interesting addition to my blog. So here it goes.

1. I am allergic to lavender (The smell causes me to get very bad migraines). Two reasons why this is very annoying? a) I love the colour purple but unfortunately almost everything in the cosmetic isle in this colour is lavender scented. b) I do suffer from migraines and many of the natural remedies for migraines contain lavender as it is meant to relieve the pain.

2. I love to cook. If I am bored I will often convince people to allow me to cook them food.

3. I detest artificial banana flavour (and am not too keen on bananas either). If I buy a packet of lollies and it contains a lolly which is yellow in colour I will make someone else try it before I go near it. I also love clinkers chocolate, I will bite the end of to see what colour it is inside, if it is yellow I will throw it in the bin (I also believe a packet of clinkers contains ½ yellow, ¼ pink and ¼ green clinkers just to piss me off).

4. I have had the same best friend my entire life, since I am an only child I now do think of her as my sister. I would die for her in a heartbeat.

5. I love to write and am a perfectionist when it comes to handwriting. When I was in school I would sometimes write a report anywhere between three to seven pages long before realising my writing was somewhat messy and starting again. I am slowly getting over this. My boyfriend of three and a bit years has received more than 50 letters from me as this is one of the ways I show affection to others.

6. My parents were going to name me India, China, Jade or Maddison, for years I wished they had named me China and absolutely hated my name.

7. I have never been on a plane or out of Western Australia for that matter, somehow this doesn't bother me the slightest.

8. I would prefer to read a book, write, draw or even just sit and think than to watch TV. I find it almost impossible to concentrate on a show I have no interest in and do not have a favorite program I 'just have to see' every week. I do enjoy movies but unless I am interested the same applies. I do watch the news most mornings and read the newspaper most weekends just so I know what is going on in the world around me.

9. I will never say 'I love you' unless I mean it.

10. I have a strawberry birthmark on my neck which I don't even notice is there anymore. It always surprises me when I meet someone for the first time and they make a comment about it.

11. I am scared of the dark but cannot sleep if there is a light on in the room. So every night I will close my eyes and turn off the lamp and will keep my eyes closed until it is back on again or the sun is up.

12. I do not feel the need to meet or talk to new people, however this does not mean I am not happy to... I will always wait for you to approach me first. It may also take a few meetings before I warm and open up to you, before this I will probably come across as uninterested or a bitch...

13. Since I started going out with Aaron I have never found another male physically or emotionally attractive (in that way) it is completely useless trying to have 'girly chats' or to check out boys with me... I just don't get it and will not participate.

14. I didn't feel any of my piercings being done and was very surprised when I was told 'it's all over'. Even so, I was terrified before each of them.

15. I used to love needles and even enjoyed getting my blood taken until about a year and a half ago when I passed out during the process. Now I will do whatever it takes to avoid the situation.

16. I cannot stand seeing birds in cages and do not understand the point of doing so. I also do not understand or agree with getting a dog and leaving he/she at home six to eight hours a day alone while you go to work. Therefore I don't agree with getting a pet unless you are willing to give them as much unconditional love and attention as they are willing to give to you. DO NOT BUY PETS AS CHRISTMAS PRESENTS... the novelty does wear off in many cases.

17. When I was younger I was able to see ghosts, I spent the day with my grandmother at her funeral. I haven't seen anything since I was around thirteen and am terrified of seeing one again.

18. My eyes change between green, hazel, brown and a yellowish/topaz colour depending on my emotional wellbeing.

19. The first time I ever spoke to Aaron on the internet I said to myself 'this is the boy I will spend the rest of my life with'. I was twelve at the time. We started dating just before my fifteenth birthday.

20. My dad and I have the same taste in music and have introduced each other to many new bands/artists. One of my favorite things to do is to go driving with him with the music up loud.

21. I have a very close bond with both of my parents and have never really felt the need to rebel against them. They have always understood me and allowed me to be who I needed to be at any given stage of my life. I love to just sit and chat to them both and can talk more openly and comfortably with them than anyone else.

22. I am extremely clumsy and uncoordinated. I usually try to focus on everything I do to avoid accidents (Like falling up/down stairs for example).

23. My favorite part of starting a new year of school, Tafe or University is stationary shopping... it's been like this since I started pre-primary.

24. I can't wait to get my tattoo and have had the design picked out for a few years now, however I don't know where on my body I would like to place it. Ideally I would love to have it on my wrist but people do not tend to employ teachers with body art... visible tattoo's reduce your chances of employment in many fields for that matter.

25. I am not religious but I do believe that there is something more than us out there. I haven't figured out what that is yet and I think that it may take for me to experience something (like the death of a family member for example) before I open up to the idea. I do believe however there is something after death... an after life, more because I cannot handle the thought of spending the rest of eternity in a box... nor can I handle the thought of my family and friends doing so either.