christmas.

So Christmas is in three days. I am actually looking forward to christmas this year.
Christmas is funny, it brings out the crazy in people.
Christmas these days is materialistic, and to many it symbolises the end of the year and what you have and havent accomplished. Then these thoughts and feelings last until new years where we realise that we can't change anything, so we make resolutions and have high hopes.

What happened to the days where we decorated our hand picked christmas trees with pop corn and string?
What happened to the days where christmas wasn't such a rush, with people freaking out about shopping and presents?
What happened to the days where Christmas was just about family? Christ? Christmas cheer?

Okay Okay.
So maybe I do like the presents and the food.
But seriously sometimes Christmas brings out the bad in people.
I went to the city one year and saw a woman knock over a old lady just to get the last toy for her son.
Lets think about that one shall we?
so yeah your three year old son (who can't even grasp the concept of christmas) has one more gift to acompany the billions of others under your tree.
But an old lady can't stand up and socialise with her family at christmas lunch...because of you.
please tell me if it is worth it?
eh?

For me, presents aside. Christmas is very emotional.
My mum can't join us for christmas with the family.
And here comes what I was talking about earlier.
I look back and see what our family has gone through this year and it makes me sad in some ways but oh so very happy in others. I guess to just focus on the possitive - My mum and I have become so close, and to be honest she is like my mum when she needs to be, but she can be like my best friend at other times. I would have never thought we could be so close. It means the world to me that we can get along like we do, and with such love. She may not have been able to do a lot of the things most mums do, but she has done so much more. She is amazing. She inspires me. She has given me the emotional support I needed. And to be honest I wouldn't give up our relationship for the world. My dad, he is just a remarkable human being, he has also given me the emotional support I needed this year. He holds us together as best he can. He is also an inspiration to me. My daddy and I have the best father daughter relationship I have ever seen. He has given up his time to to take me places. I cant even explain what me and my dad have, he has always just been my daddy, and I will always be his little girl. My parents are everything to me. And I thank them for everything. I guess this year I have been able to see my parents as not only 'mother and father' but human beings aswel. They have pain, happiness, love...every emotion I have. And I have been able to see that and accept it in the best way possible.
We may not have a "normal"(...whatever the hell normal is) life. But we have each other. Things are tough...very tough at times. But we help where we can. We may not have as much money as some, we may not have a perfect house, we have many problems with sickness inside the walls of this home. But The one thing I can feel as soon as I enter the door, is love.
And that is one thing money can't buy.

xoxo